hate dat i luv u...(alyaa nak mencari ketenangan)

yes..i'v started to fall 4 u slowly but surely..but i couldnt tell anybody n even..u... i cant tell u how much dis heart has started to open up for u..started to miss u dat much..i never thought sumtink so weird could happen rite here whenevr im wit u...sh*t.. i try to deny dis feeling but it keeps getting stronger each seconds and all i think rite now in my mind is U...sh*t sh*t SH*T... how can i tell u dat i want u to b wit me right here, right now..i want u to call me o at least text me..but u never did since dat nite...it's only me who keep on after u...so i hold myself back from calling or texting u cos i dun want to look so desperately n silly to hear ur voice....

u'v told me about ur 'resolution', being single for da next 3 years..only 1 thing i can conclude from ur words..u still cant 4get ur ex..dats for sure... ahaha so here i am again, ended up being alone n keeping all those stupid foolish feelings in my heart...hoping for miracle to happen to me cos i never know how to show my luv to sum1 dat i care....i just dunno how~

i want my family n anak-anak rite now~ pls ya allah....pls help me to get rid of those bullsh*t disgusting feelings...

Almost Lover

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
You sang me spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

AKU RINDU ANAK-ANAK AKU~ HUUU

MISS THEM!!! (aku xdak gambo lain dh..ni ja yg ada) huhuhuh ni masa kecik2 g..skang dh besaq dh..waaaaaaaa rindunya!!!!!!!!!!

hepi thaipusam rakan-rakan

meh2 jom g batu cave..kita pakat-pakat bawak 'kavaddi'(ye ke eja cmtuh) pahtu kita panjat tangga btu cave yg beratus-ratus anak tangga tuh..kompem kurus punya la pahtu..hehe to all ya smbut thaipusam..selamat menyambut dengan selamat la ye! amma, vanekkam!(aku konpius ni hello ka pa ka)

finally berjaya post (hols+works)

eriq n fendy

eddie,me,eriq,fendy n nuha

da wireless is so freakingly slow cam siput 'tut'!!! i'v been trying to post this blog since like a decade ago? ahaha since last monday huhu yeay,went back from jb wit a big smile on my face~(wink*) wat is dat means? nothing..just things went so well n i managed to settle my thing in UTM..met old buddy whilst met new buddy...cool buddies! lurve hang out wit them..neway, thanx for all da help n blanja makan2 n tour2 d jb ya guys...da rezeki leh lepak ag skali together-gether...lalala... (heppi =)

OMG OMG OMG

tired tired tired = exhausted like hell!! huhuhu bundles of works in my KIV list..GOD!! site analysis, therapeutic garden design crit on thursday,professional practices project paper, keusahawanan topikal study summore and plus my mid sem exm tomoro nite..dint study a thing yet...OMG how am i supposed to do this..design t-shirt for poli shah alam also dint setel yet..sumbody pls help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Single, double, triple?

cant wait to go to jb..dunno why but sumhow rather i've to admit dat i miss him...it's been a while since da last time i saw him...actually da intention going to jb is not cos of him ler, wanna setel up my thesis (topikal study) there. tp, smbil menyelam minum air, eventhough air tuh masin..ahaha but dunno why, my feeling seems to fade away not to him only, but to any guy dat i know rite now to b honest. i just so enjoying myself to be single. No bluffing. it's true!! myb cos i get used of it dh kot. hmm.. my 'x' is begging for my attention again, not dat 'expired' one.. another one. how many 'x' i got? ahaha just 3 lor..ok la tuh, leh kira pkai jari ag... i just dunno how to react cos i dun wanna get into any kind of trouble or madness or sick sux feelings anymore. im so damn happy to be frensss wit everybody around me. btol la apa org slalu ckp, SINGLE IS SIMPLE, DOUBLE IS TROUBLE, TRIPLE?? IT's COMPLICATED~ ahaha

i know ur name, but i dont get ur number...YET~ ahaha

im so damn bored tonite...only searching for my thesis info..happen to be i'v to open up my university's website, to be precised, my faculty's web..then all if sudden, an idea of stalking appeared in my mind when i saw the link to list of 'Kakitangan'...ahahaha i searched for every jabatan in my faculty but fail at first then i open up at the 'Helpdesk' link.......... Tada~ ahahaha gotcha!!! now i know his name...lalalala epi epi ahahaha... aku gatal ke? lantak la..jnji aku epi..hehehe but i cant mentioned here wats his name...shh xleh clear sgt eh..nnt kantoi..kih kih kih xoxo

Kunci keta aku bengkok!!

aku tatao la aku wat cmna tp yg pastinya..kunci keta aku bengkok!!! wahaha gila toi...seb bek aku nih kuat la jugak leh bg btol balik, klu x..mmg terkandas la aku ngn memb aku kt cheras...the end..ni short post ja..hehe

HOLIDAY..definitely not for me

wanna go home..so quiet way back here in my college, everybody is leaving to their hometown, having a nice warm holiday for chinese new year, but i end up staying here instead, settling my thesis...huhuhu sad n alone but wat to do..i'v to do this or else i'll got abundance of works after the hols...

dunno wat happen this few days, im so tired doing my job yet still plenty left..adoih, anybody care for a help?? if only my life would be much easier then...if only~..gotta go to UPM, UM, UTM,USM, it's all for my thesis..hope that everythg will be fine n go on as wat i'v plan b4.. on 28th going to UPM n UM..on 29-31st will be UTM pulak..wah2, kalah pak lah la busy aku neh..ahaha yet, still sempat shopping g kot td..ahaha i LURVE shop shop shop..dats the best remedy for me!!! but duit x dak la pulak..huhuhu nak cari duit..nak cari duit...de spa2 da keja part time x?

IT's KILLING ME!!

dis cough is killing me!!! it's been a while since da last time i caught a very bad cough..during matriculation if i'm not mistaken..i hate it sooo much!! cos whenever i cough, it's not da regular cough, it's extra special dishes out sigh...feels like dying!!! complete set with lung congestion, my throat feels like bursting out, tears cme down my face (rolling down? ahaha), n i hardly cant breathe n for worst, i dunno how to control it!!! warghhh berjangkit kt spa ntah neh...huhuhuhuhuhu god, help me~

2+1 = ZERO (EXPIRED)

hey!! help me help me!! i've just got a freakinly bad heart attack cos sum1 dat has been away from my life since da last 9 f*ckng months suddenly strikes me back again on phone...WHAT IS UR INTENTION?? if u think a phone call can changed everythg, can glued back all those tiny little pieces of my heart dat u've intentionally broke 9 months ago??? U R SOOOO DAMN WRONG!!! yes it's true im so happy n glad if u call me..IF U CALL ME 9 MONTHS AGO~hahaha dreaming la, im not dat stupid gurl who can easily fall for ur sad n pathetic creepy BULLSHIT horror stories dat u've ever told or about to tell me again in a mean time...just keep it to urself,opss no no..just tell ur beloved 'wife' la..who am i to hear all those junks a.k.a rubbish? im not DBKL dorh...u gotta fine a better way, lot whole way better than those oldskul tricks cos it has reached da EXPIRY DATE...EXPIRED!!!!

for those who wanna hear some bedtime stories, u r free to contact dat particular person..u'll gonna be so amazed of how he can makes all those drama in the tv come true...seriusly babe!!! real siot cam filem!!! ahaha

Camno neh??

cmna nak hypnotized org ek? ahaha...sorry ya..dis is just one of my 'gatal' feeling towards a person yg sgt 'close' d mata aku tp 'far' sgt2 actually..haish..depan mata dok nampak tetiap ari tp sepatah haram x penah ckp, in fact..NAMA PUN TATAO BABE!! ahaha all i know is just his nick name..bkn nak amek wat laki pon, just wanna chill n know who he is...berkawan biar infinity lorh..he's cute but soooo arrogant n full of himself..huh~ nyampah aku tp nk wat cmna, every people has da rite to live as they like..tp sja ja la,just curious, gay kah dia? hehe heran heran heran....cmno neh??

Ternyata

Ku lihat dia
Pandangan pertama
Ternyata indah
Senyuman liriknya

Ku ingin dia
Saat pertama
Berjumpa dengannya
Membuat ku gelisah

Waktu berlalu
Hari demi hari
Hatiku dambakannya
Untuk bercinta lagi

Hatiku dambakannya
Untuk bercinta lagi.....

Disasterousestestest life!!!

Pls god, dun try me wit this cruel situation..i just wanted to start my new sem wit a new hope n new bright spirit but u'v alrdy given me wit such unacceptable test for me..pls...not my parents....pls ya allah~ both of my parents r admitted to ward rite now...pls pray for their health...dunno wat to write cos im so miserable n feel damn horrible by not able to be around by their side in dis moment...arghh ayat pun merepek dh...nak balik!!!! huhuhuhu