HOLIDAY..definitely not for me

wanna go home..so quiet way back here in my college, everybody is leaving to their hometown, having a nice warm holiday for chinese new year, but i end up staying here instead, settling my thesis...huhuhu sad n alone but wat to do..i'v to do this or else i'll got abundance of works after the hols...

dunno wat happen this few days, im so tired doing my job yet still plenty left..adoih, anybody care for a help?? if only my life would be much easier then...if only~..gotta go to UPM, UM, UTM,USM, it's all for my thesis..hope that everythg will be fine n go on as wat i'v plan b4.. on 28th going to UPM n UM..on 29-31st will be UTM pulak..wah2, kalah pak lah la busy aku neh..ahaha yet, still sempat shopping g kot td..ahaha i LURVE shop shop shop..dats the best remedy for me!!! but duit x dak la pulak..huhuhu nak cari duit..nak cari duit...de spa2 da keja part time x?

IT's KILLING ME!!

dis cough is killing me!!! it's been a while since da last time i caught a very bad cough..during matriculation if i'm not mistaken..i hate it sooo much!! cos whenever i cough, it's not da regular cough, it's extra special dishes out sigh...feels like dying!!! complete set with lung congestion, my throat feels like bursting out, tears cme down my face (rolling down? ahaha), n i hardly cant breathe n for worst, i dunno how to control it!!! warghhh berjangkit kt spa ntah neh...huhuhuhuhuhu god, help me~

2+1 = ZERO (EXPIRED)

hey!! help me help me!! i've just got a freakinly bad heart attack cos sum1 dat has been away from my life since da last 9 f*ckng months suddenly strikes me back again on phone...WHAT IS UR INTENTION?? if u think a phone call can changed everythg, can glued back all those tiny little pieces of my heart dat u've intentionally broke 9 months ago??? U R SOOOO DAMN WRONG!!! yes it's true im so happy n glad if u call me..IF U CALL ME 9 MONTHS AGO~hahaha dreaming la, im not dat stupid gurl who can easily fall for ur sad n pathetic creepy BULLSHIT horror stories dat u've ever told or about to tell me again in a mean time...just keep it to urself,opss no no..just tell ur beloved 'wife' la..who am i to hear all those junks a.k.a rubbish? im not DBKL dorh...u gotta fine a better way, lot whole way better than those oldskul tricks cos it has reached da EXPIRY DATE...EXPIRED!!!!

for those who wanna hear some bedtime stories, u r free to contact dat particular person..u'll gonna be so amazed of how he can makes all those drama in the tv come true...seriusly babe!!! real siot cam filem!!! ahaha

Camno neh??

cmna nak hypnotized org ek? ahaha...sorry ya..dis is just one of my 'gatal' feeling towards a person yg sgt 'close' d mata aku tp 'far' sgt2 actually..haish..depan mata dok nampak tetiap ari tp sepatah haram x penah ckp, in fact..NAMA PUN TATAO BABE!! ahaha all i know is just his nick name..bkn nak amek wat laki pon, just wanna chill n know who he is...berkawan biar infinity lorh..he's cute but soooo arrogant n full of himself..huh~ nyampah aku tp nk wat cmna, every people has da rite to live as they like..tp sja ja la,just curious, gay kah dia? hehe heran heran heran....cmno neh??

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Disasterousestestest life!!!

Pls god, dun try me wit this cruel situation..i just wanted to start my new sem wit a new hope n new bright spirit but u'v alrdy given me wit such unacceptable test for me..pls...not my parents....pls ya allah~ both of my parents r admitted to ward rite now...pls pray for their health...dunno wat to write cos im so miserable n feel damn horrible by not able to be around by their side in dis moment...arghh ayat pun merepek dh...nak balik!!!! huhuhuhu

A new year, A new day n A new life

yeah 2009!!! starting a new year wit a very boring start i guess..hahaha luckily da new semester have not started yet,still i got extra week to rest up my mind n also to accept da fact dat im in my final year, to be precised, FINAL SEM!! warghhh bundles dundles of works are awaiting for me again..lets rox wit those junkS!! ahaha neway, im setting up a new year's resolution, JANGAN MAIN-MAIN LAGI ALYAA... i want to improved my cgpa,being a nerd but yet still having fun in da final year..hehe forget bout those sceptical foolish feeling la, bf? tolak tepi dulu la ye tp scandal tuh bleh diterima ag la kot..ahahaha juz kidding dorh..but no matter wat,im not a gay...so,being a straight gurl,definitely cant avoided me from admiring a 'cute' boy(s)..hehe sori la..kinda bz lately n wireless in ukm also kinda sucks,hard to update my blog frequently...daaa 2008 n OLLA 2009!!!

ayah kepada anak-anakku

hehehe controversional ait? since lots of people kept asking me da question of whos da father of my kids down here..so let me gve a special appearance of ODDY a.k.a ABUN..hehehe

anak-anakku dh besar

anak2ku dh besar!! geramnya..comeynya..sayangnya..huhuhu ramai org mintak neh tp sygny nk pisahkan depa..sorry ya guys..leh bg gambo je la untuk tatapan umum..hehe luv to watch em playing around..jumpin all over anything dat can be stepped on..smpai ke muka aku pon kena pijak...luka la pulak tepi idung n bwh atas mulut aku sbb bdk2 kicik neh..huhu tp xpa, still luv em all loads n loads..cant imagine life witout em..thx allah for those sweet lil things...only em, lit up my boring life at home

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU

tired but alhamdulillah...it's my sister's wedding!!! hoho finally, aku ada abang?? wahaha alhamdulillah everythng's done n all i'v to do for this time being is to kemas2 umah la pulak..pergh penatnya x yah kata la..huhuhu neway, wishing SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU to my dear sis, mudahan berkekalan sampai da org pnggil aku maksu lak pasni..hehe nk story byk pun x larat,tgk gambo dh la eh..several pictures taken during dat memorable day,pkai hp je capture sbb cari charger camera x jumpak..ampeh toi..YEYE ada abang!! ahaha

hepi hepi in hometown!!

dis is all i got, dis is all i want..nothing n no one can replaced the emptiness deep inside my heart but my family...luv em all so much..n my frens, they r just extremely awesome, couldnt imagine life witout em...gals n guys, lets go ronggeng!!!!

Edward Cullen?

suddenly everyone is talking bout Edward Cullen. da spa2 tatao ka spa mamat neh? ala yg dok blakang umah aku tuh la..ahahaha all my gurlfrens are talking n gila bayanging at dis guy..ahaha dun daydreaming sgt la gurls, he's in a fiction story only maa, but i got to admit dat HE IS F*CKINGLY DAMN HOTTIESSSSSS!!! ahaha np la xdak org2 skeliling aku yg hot cmtu? ish2..sabo je la..hehe

I'm STUCKED in bangi n STUCKED in life

i want to go home!!!!!!! hari raya aidiladha just few days to come yet im still here in bangi,wit no transportation,no frens n no everything!!! waaaaa tiket balik kedah sudah habis maa,bus n trains suma abeh,ikotkan ati nk nek flight ja tp all of sudden my sis ckp nk balik but hv to wait for her till dis saturday la pulak, n those waiting moments for surely will kill me harsh. mama, adik nk balik umah cepat2 huhuhu i dont wanna stay here much longer doing nothing but thinking bout dat particular human being.

sum1 dat i can see no more, no more bright happy laugh, no more silly silly jokes n for surely no more dat 'in-team' words....sigh,i know it gotta b sumtink wrong wit all this situation or it all just wrong, starting from the very 1st beginning...i can say that, i choosed da wrong guy, again? ahaha

i shouldnt mess myself wit dis pathetic agonizing fluffy fluffy silly feelings again actually. my life is so damn fine for da last 7 months, my bruises are healed, perfectly covered wit no scar(i guessed), i can finally took off da stitches dat make me look awful, im happy as hell o heaven. but when i saw u at dat unfined evening, my heart beats faster then i can imagine...wats happening to me? allah,pls dun try to test me again,emotionally...

i try to keep it as distinguished as i can, i dun want to get carried away by those sceptically stupid feelings dat will always playing around wit people's heart..but i cant, cos u started it..U'v STARTED IT..n me, a weak foolish bengap human being cant avoid anythg but to continue wat u'v started.. n now, all i can do is to go to da pharmacy to get myself a 'painkiller' n loads of plasters again n make my own remedy sumtimes,which is..pretending..pretend dat i'm fine..damn, it's bleeding again...

im sori,it's not me to brag or to accuse anybody but just hoping dat one day i'll know wat is da rite path for me to carry on through my entire life...help me allah...help me

I HATE THIS PART

december is arriving..wit plane or car or bicycle or beca,i dunno..i just cant believe myself end up being alone again in, i mean in UKM rite now doing da acredatation things..bundles of board need to be set up b4 tomorrow but nobody seems to really care bout it cos everybody is so damn tired to handle it anymore.. but this thing is not da main factor of my loneliness actually...cant believe i fall in luv wit a gay!! ahaha..opss wrong fact!! but watever it is,my heart n my soul r really22222 sarcastically badly miserably HURT AGAIN!! dammit~ huhu..why..is god really wanna show me sumtink or it just me who cant figure out of wat really supposedly to happen in my life?supposedly i choose? each day,it's getting worst cos i cant stop thinking n thinking n thinking..ARE GOOD GUYS REALLY EXIST IN THIS WORLD??....stupid me...i gotta be strong no matter wat,pretend like nothing happen,wish that nothing really ever happen...god..help me~

home now..lalala

so good to be home!!! but quite bored here,got nothing to do then end up sleeping lorh..luckily my anak2 are juz so damn adorable, luv playing wit them..hehe i want to really2 appreciate my time in my hometown rite now but i'v to go back to Ukm for my accreditation programme..haish..so agonizing~ penat seyh ulang-alik,bknnya dekat kot..huhuhu sabo je la.. hey~ y i miss him?? surely ma frens know who's dat guy..ahaha..daa~